22. Shopping Around

well i had my long awaited doctor appointment yesterday!

the big thing i wanted to know about was the pain i've been having in my hip(s)/thigh. evidently it is not normal and so i begin physical therapy tomorrow morning! i can't tell you how excited i am about this - hopefully hopefully hopefully it helps!

i was also told the next time i feel any chest pain/heaviness like i did last week i should just go in to the emergency room to get checked out. she didn't think it was anything too serious but just wants to be on the safe side. fine by me!

i have to say that while i really like my doctor and think she is very nice i was a little disappointed with some things yesterday and it's got me thinking....

first off - we showed up to our one o'clock appointment early - but not too early. we got in fairly quickly. once i talked to the nurse and she left it was one o'clock. we sat in that room for 45 minutes! the doctor finally showed up and while she was very nice there was absolutely no mention of being sorry that she was running late. i know that things can get hectic there but a little apology would have been nice and probably smoothed everything over for me. but don't make me wait 45 minutes when the entire lobby was empty of patients and act like you showed up on time.

i had a list of questions to ask. it had been six weeks since i was last in there. i was expecting a little quality time - especially since she seems to have given her last patient all the time in the world. i'm pretty sure if i hadn't been forceful in bringing them up she would have taken a look at me and sent me on my way all in a span of two minutes!

one of my questions regarded birthing tubs - or at least tubs that i could labor in. she said they had showers. uh yeah - pretty sure those two have nothing in common. so that sucked.

like i said - my doctor is very nice but i just don't feel right somehow. i know doctors can't be super one on one and remember all their patients but it's my first baby and it's a big deal to me, ya know? my doctor has a couple of other doctors in her practice and any one of them might end up in the delivery room with me. that's fine and i understand - but shouldn't i at least get to meet these other doctors? perhaps have an appointment with each one of them? that way at least i'll know who they are even though they may not remember me.

and i must admit i'm a little disappointed about the lack of birthing amenities. granted i have no idea how my labor will go and laboring in water/water birth may not be in the cards. but i'd like the option. i called the other hospital in town - they have an actual birthing center. so they said i could just show up anytime and they'd give me a tour. chris and i are going to do that when he gets off work tonight. i'll ask a bunch of questions and then make up my mind about whether or not i want to make such a big switch.

i'm also going to start interviewing doula's. that way i know i'll have someone there who knows me and that will give some piece of mind.

21. Doctor Appt = Today!

i get to go to the doctor!

i get to go to the doctor!

i get to go to the doctor!

who knew a gal could be so excited about a doctor's appointment? :)

20. Hmmmm......

when we first moved into the house a few months ago i was greeted (well...no one actually said 'hi') by our new neighbors. they were....how shall i put this...white trashy. you know the kind. screaming and hollering at the children (probably all from different fathers). overweight. yard not mowed. toys left everywhere. etc. etc.

since that first encounter we've come to get to know the grandmother who owns the house. nice enough. the kids are pretty okay too. but the squallering that goes on! and the hacking of lungs from smoking - i kid you not - one day she was out there for 45 minutes hacking and hacking and hacking and spitting. nasty shit.

well today i happen to look out my window and see not one but two squad cars! turns out no one was home but it looked like the cops were going to hang out for a bit and wait but then decided to leave.

now i'm curious.

it's happening. i'm going to turn into that old lady with cats who spies on her neighbors. sigh....

19. Argh!

argh!

up at the butt crack of dawn - not to mention the eight thousand times i've been up all night to piss. and every single one of those times the area above my knee was completely numb. finally at 5am i couldn't take it anymore - the numbness was spreading and my leg and hip just hurt too bad to lay in bed any longer.

so i got up. leg still hurts. it hurts when i sit. it hurts when i walk. it hurts when i stand. it hurts when i lay down. what the fuck? is this going to fucking last for six more months?

i wish it were wednesday! i cannot wait to go to the doctor and find out what is wrong with me. hopefully it's something that i can go to the chiropractor for - or get a massage for. or maybe there's two babies in there...

i know everyone thinks i'm crazy for wanting twins but seriously - who knows what they're getting into when they have their first baby? why not have two? and then i can be done - i can't imagine going through all this leg crap while having to chase a toddler around the house. no thank you.

ugh. sorry for all the swearing and complaining. but mother fucker - i'm so god damn sick of my leg and hip! no matter what i do they hurt or are numb. all the time! frick!

18. Avacado

today marks the start of week 16. according to internet baby experts the babe is now the size of an avacado!

i had someone ask me about the babe for the first time on thursday at work! not that i'm not positive i look pregnant and not just fat (i'm so big that my mom is sure i'm having twins!) but it was nice to have someone (strangers that is) finally notice. i was beginning to think that every customer coming in just thought i must sample too much candy!

i have my next doctor's appointment on wednesday. cannot wait! my hip/butt/thigh problem is only getting worse. for instance - i cannot feel my thigh right now. i mean i can feel it...it's like when you go to the dentist and the novocaine starts to wear off - that weird sensation. i also had some massive chest heaviness the other night. just sitting watching tv and all the sudden my chest hurt. it felt like my heart was going to beat right out of it! kinda scary - but according to a lot of baby forums i looked at pretty typical.

in other non-pregnancy related news.....

i took the dog out to pee last night. (pretty exciting, eh?) but when i came back in albus (my black cat) was waiting at the door for us. he's done this before and i didn't think anything of it. i came in and shut/locked the door, turned off the porch light and went to bed. woke up this morning and chris took the dog out only to discover albus sitting on the porch letting out a meow the likes of which neither of us had ever heard! evidently he snuck out in that instant i brought the dog in last night! poor baby! i'm so thankful he didn't run away - i don't know what i would have done!

(okay...now the thigh is having some pain issues....)

he's pretty good that way - staying in one place that is. i remember the night i first adopted him. i had him in bed with me but i couldn't sleep because he was playing with my feet so much. so i put a blanket outside my door, set him on it and shut the door. the next morning he was exactly where i set him :)

alright - i need to get up and move a bit. i'm so bummed because i'm sitting in the glider my mom bought us and it's awesome - but it makes my darn leg go numb SO fast. sigh...

i think i've now lost feeling in my left ass cheek....